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Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Just Say You Didn't

My motivation to do anything ever has taken a severe nosedive into the depths of hell, which I've decided looks like a Michigan winter.

I don't want to exercise. Even if I do, it doesn't feel like enough.

I don't want to track my points for Weight Watchers. I do anyway, because I have to in order to plan my next meal, so I guess I should get a gold star for that. But I whine about it the whole time because everything is the worst!!!!

I don't want to go anywhere. It usually costs money, involves putting on makeup, and it is cold and snowy and unpleasant outside:

If you live anywhere warmer than this, go outside and worship the sun we never see, you asshole.

I don't want to clean the house. It's cold when you're not on the couch under a Snuggie and a dog.

I am unmotivated, uninspired, uneverything. I am just un. That is how I feel.


So basically, I am Eeyore. 


I didn't go to my meeting last week because on Tuesday I didn't want to and on Thursday there was a blizzard. I had a fabulous time at a party on the previous Saturday night and was convinced that I had gained weight because of it, even though it was probably the best I've ever done tracking points while in an inebriated state of mind. I even saved up points for it! I ate more than I intended, but I counted everything I ate (I think), and owned up to my mistake. The next few days, I stayed within my allotted points, however, I ate ALL of my 49 weekly points, which I try to avoid. So, I didn't go, because I didn't think I could handle another gain week after the previous two. 

But...

Good NEWS, everyone! I had a weigh-in today, and I lost over three pounds, putting me at a total loss of 6.8 pounds in six weeks. It's still not as fast as I want, but I FINALLY got over the five pound mark that has felt impossible since OCTOBER. Which means either I lost 3.4 pounds in one week (unlikely), or I would have gone to that meeting and realized that I had actually lost after all. But I will never know, and seeing a number over 2 on the "lost this week" line does feel good, even if it is kind of a lie. 

I feel better, but still pretty Eeyore, which is a verb now, get over it. Winter has always bummed me out, but according to the woodchuck who comes out on February 2nd, spring is "just around the corner." Everyone knows that's a lie, but for some reason it's comforting to the masses, desperate to cling to something when February rolls around and we are all slowly beginning to go dead inside. The whimsical woodland creature will give us hope! 

"When someone says 'how-do-you-do,' just say you didn't." --Eeyore

Just like Eeyore!



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